Thursday, April 4, 2013

i wish

this pregnancy is killing me!  I have been soo extremely tired and exhausted ... my list of "to do" has grown by the minute and when i feel like i've made a dent in it I turn around and see that i may have crossed off this and that but it grew by another 10 more "to dos"
it sadly has come to a point where I can't keep up.  the house is really just a mess and makes me cry every time i come home to it.  i have so many things left to do before I can tackle something else but i just never have the time or energy to do it.  and trying to maintain my sanity for the sake of my son, my husband and my unborn ... i have no more left. 
i really want to take a few days off or at least have my work hours cut so I can use that time to
1 REST - like i said i have no energy left and am just left tired and exhausted at the end of every day.
2 use those days to play catch up on my "to do" list and hopefully and ACTUALLY make a dent in it.
3 make my house a home.  our walls are still bare, some of them still need to be painted, and i have pictures and i have frames but not all together. 
4 to actually be there for my boy.  i have been craving the need to be "mom" and not the working mom ...
5 get ready for my unborn ... i have all my ideas and soon "stuff" will be coming in and i'm not ready at all.  i need to get the room ready, the house ready ... my body ready.  i'm just so tired. 

i wish i had more time in the day ... in my life ... a bigger house ... more room ... more hands ... more ...

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